Saturday, 17 March 2012

Emo

[An idle emo mind is whose workshop?]

“You da one that im failing,
You da one that im lovin,
I bet you da one.”
Hmmm, that sounds about right. The pen goes down on the table. Lean back. Gaze drifts upward. Cobwebs. Intricate. Designs. Held feebly. No, too complex.
“Come to me,
I need you,
Cuz you da one for me.”
Sigh. Dup-dup-dup--Dupu-dupu-dup-dup--... Inhale deeply. Restlessness. Rises. Walks about a bit. So what if Bella didn’t get Edward, atleast she’s alive. Nose itches. Scratches it. Admires dirt in nails. She’s moved on. She changes every day, so now she’s moved on. Looks back at the desk and chair. Sits. Rests head in hands. Looks at the time. Five minutes to eleven.
“Get down,
Get up,
Enjoy”
Such pointlessness. All because of her. Humpf. Focus! Hmmm... What are we doing? What am I doing? Humpf.
“Yeah!
I’m comin’ home,
I’m comin’ home,
Tell everyone I’m comin’ home (There’s no place like home),
I’m comin’ home”
Ahh... Flicks pen away. Ruffles hair. Stretches. Grabs iPod. Stuffs earphones in ears; switches on the radio. Reclines; shuts eyes.


Monday, 23 May 2011

How I wish I could lie

[I sometimes ask, "Why do I do this to myself!" I tell myself that its all about perception; nothing more, nothing less. The misconceptions I allow people to have are my way of being false. I'm tired of my naivete.]

How I wish I could lie
(To the tune of I believe I can fly…)

I used to think that lies were all too wrong
And truth would hold out and would last for long
But now I see the meaning in false lives
Innocence is just causing me great harm.

If you can't see through it, then I'd go through with it,
If you'd just believe it, there's nothing to it.

How I wish I could lie
How I wish I could thus get by
I think about it every night and day
(how) To manipulate people to my way

How I wish you wouldn't doubt
All the lies flowing through my open mouth
Oh how I wish I could lie
How I wish I could lie
How I wish I could lie.

Monday, 2 May 2011

Peripetia

[I don't generally put up real-life stuff on the blog - exceptions being Gwalior Return Trip and (possibly) The Language Debate. This blog is more like meant to be what I can write off an inspired thought, or an inspired real-life incident.
I certainly don't generally (oxymoron?) believe in writing about 'the semester gone by'.
I'm gonna make an exception here. And its gonna be a boring read.
Dedicated to Piyush Ahuja and his first semester recollection, for putting a smile on that rather let-down of a semester.]

'And then one day you find, [four months; six semesters; 3 years] have got behind you…' - spoofed lyrics of Time, Pink Floyd.

I walked into this semester with the inspiration to get myself a bunch of Impressive 10s. I walk out of it with the satisfaction of having passed all my courses (most probably). Rudradev Basak and Nikhil Garg, each have approximately 100% records of getting 10s in their Departmental cores. Mine is splattered with sixes from AT and Rao and possibly few others. The fact is, they make it look so simple, so … doable.

My attendance in courses is pretty bad. I expect my hukka attendance is 70-75%, my Rao attendance to be 75%, my DB attendance to be around 60%, my Comp Arch attendance to also be about 50-60%, Graph Theory doesn't count since the prof's attendance was 50%…i wouldn't know whether to count mine as 90% or 45%. And in softi, it'd be about 65%.
And yet, I have crossed all the 'worst' of the attendance issues - being just over the mark in a number of the courses, and in the others it just not mattering.

Enough of acads. On the whole, I feel this semester was empty. Theres nothing I can take out of it. Its like one of those time-passed-nothing-to-take-out-of semesters. The second semester was the personification of such a semester. So much so that Tulsyan overlooks it and merely calls the third one as his second semester etc.

I can't say that nothing happened. I just feel that there is nothing real to take out of this. I've changed. I've come to some realizations, and I've started believing in hope - not like earlier where I'd just try to make the best of the pathetic situations. The other day, Piyush and me were discussing this semester. He said, "It was a good semester…" and I didn't want to spoil his mood, so I thought about how I've changed for the better, and become more … something … and said, "No, not really. For me, its like a liminal space. … I've changed."
"How so?"
"Well, it feels like I'm ready to do much more. I'm more aware of stuff to do. I haven't done anything worth anything this semester, but still I've become more … confident in myself."

It took the NSS Trip into a relocated slum, to make me realize that now I know enough hindi to 'survive in Delhi'. While I cannot speak it fluently, I can understand it mostly, and I can speak enough to get by with autos etc. I've also realized one trick of autos is that if you ask to go somewhere and they ask you to get in, DO NOT ask them "kitna?", that'll only start them bargaining. In this new-age hiked-up meter scenario, when an autowallah says "get in", he means, "I'm taking you by meter". Thats the status quo now, so unless he says "Assi…", you do NOT start a bargaining match.

Then there are people like Sudarshana, who've shown me that the world still cares. Indeed, a week after meeting her, I fall sick and get flowers. I sometimes wonder if being taught this caring is possible only from someone who hasn't spent a year in Delhi. I haven't dealt with such sensitivity for three whole Dilli years. I myself walked into IIT with my own issues that made me cut myself off from people and live without a care. I walked into this world of IIT with the feeling that not caring is the best way to handle the choices and decisions of life. Don't bother about sacrificing, about compromising - just take whatever you want, there shouldn't have to be a question of want and not having … blah!

Yes, I did have issues back then. And first year was cut-throat. It was a world where loyalties did not exist, where people allied themselves on whims, where your only sure footing was your next destination. I could not come to terms for a while with all the backstabbing and double crossing. In time, I got used to it and imbibed some of it, considering that to be the status quo here. The survival of the fittest. Things have changed since then. I have found my peace with people. I have found that loyalties can exist, and can last.

I am surrounded by mediocrity. The lack of the pursuit of excellence is all around. Its been so long since I've been with a master-of-all-trades, and it will be quite a while more I think. I mean, really, one just has to ask oneself, "from where do studs appear?" and the answer is really is that they are just normal people with that drive to excel, something thats quite missing in the people around me. At some point during this semester, I came to realize that my time here is as passed as if it weren't there. I feel that when I leave this place and get into the world, it will be as good as if I had just left school and am getting into the world. There is nothing new I have picked up in college. Its all just been 3 years of time-pass.

I have discovered that Facebook is like the one-stop for any youth to keep himself updated with the world around him. I have been wasting too much time on it nevertheless. I believe that it should ideally be used only for updating oneself and keeping others updated of you. But then the question arises, "updated how often?" and the incessant keeda that tells you to check your updates.

To Siddharth Bhattacharya: I have honestly found your presence in my room a disturbance. I have often found the presence of people disturbing, but since you've been the most enthusiastic volunteer, I'm mentioning you here. Having said that, you were there mostly for softi work. To nag us into getting down to doing something. And there I do need to apologize for my laziness, my nalayak-ity. Sorry I kinda mostly gave up on the thing after my presentation, and the fact is, we do owe our overall success to you, mate.

Which makes me wonder… All one needs to do to get oneself the most credit after a successful venture, is to be the most nagging and resented creature during the course of it.

And Divyam Singhal. Before this semester, we were just Yo-maga and Cream (of the nation) buddies… I always knew you sucked, but I just took it very playfully. This time, however, you've gone and launched yourself from a cannon right into the middle of my life. When it happens like this, one understands that you do suck - a little worse than just 'playfully'. Yeah, whatever, I'm gonna be taking you back in the middle-of-my-life from this semester, so don't go hating the god's roomy for this.

I joined music classes for the piano in March. Realized that my left hand is more stiff by far than my right; thats probably why I'm so much more comfortable with the right hand. Got to exercise my thumbs and all. On the interhostel scene, theres nothing much to say, except we managed one self-comp for Western, and did NOT manage another one for Fusion. Not much to say really, when you end up not showing up for an event.

We had our own adventures during the midsem break with Vipul giving up on us and our Rajasthan trip; and more importantly, deciding last-minute to go to Vaishnodevi. Now my parents consider Jammu as dangerous as "JnK" and if they were to find out that I'd gone there, I'd be a goner. Having said that, when Vivek gave me the call in the afternoon asking if I'd be willing to go, I agreed without a second's thought.

The trip was good fun. Orange-wali and snow being two things I'd take out of it. On the final walk up to the 'cave', I realized, and told myself, that all this pain to my feet is gonna be for next-to-nothing. I told myself that by the time I reach wherever-it-is-I'm-going, its gonna be a moment of whatever-it-is-I'm-gonna-be-doing, and then its all over. The entire trudge, the complete running around barefoot, and the pain of trying to dry your feet only to have the wind blow all over again - it was all gonna be for nothing. Yes well, others reacted to it even worse, so…

The train journeys were hilarious. We really owe Attri a lot for Asshole. Minus followed soon (again from Attri?). Ahhh, those good ol' days… "J, Q, K, hai na?" and "Lets play aggressive!!!" being most hilarious. The way back, having 6 on two berths was legendary. Maggu got off in-between but still! Me, chuchi and Bhalu all on one berth trying to sleep… ahh!

After getting back, during the break itself, a case of mistaken identity triggered the worst arbit-tharki-aap phase I've dealt with. It started off so innocently that no one would ever even suspect the trigger, but even so, it grew larger and larger like some Giggle-loop (ref. the series Coupling) and ultimately I came up with this F3 - Flirt fuck flee, which when I mentioned to Tulsyan and Piyush, Tulsyan guessed one of the F's to be 'fetch', upon which I upgraded it to F4 = Fetch Flirt Fuck Flee. It lasted just the one week - the duration of the sembreak - because of our Humanities class on the monday just after, where I sort of Faced my … condition.

The humanities class has been a blast. The complete lack of boring seniors along with a highly interesting set of batchmates and an unbelievably enthusiastic bunch of juniors made even Ma'am find the course very 'interesting' and 'lively'. I got to interact with so many new people and have some side-ripping fun, with Shakhayan, Piyush, Tulsani, Nishit and Mayank. And Bhola. The tutes were a blast especially and I am really grateful that we had our format of mutual discussion rather than fire-at-the-presenters format which I'd noticed in the two other groups I'd attended.

I've restarted arguing with Piyush. Its a means for us to escape our dumbness. I will still remain dumb, but I stand to pick up drops of wisdom from our interaction, and I find that he attains a level of clarity of expression that at some level, is self-discovery. We had had a very bad second semester, and had called a mutual unspoken truce when we got back in the second year. Its taken one and half years of dumbing to reawaken our kindred spirits.

"We just spend our time thinking about whether to grab the opportunities or not; our laziness is still overpowering. We have to think about doing things, about whether to do things or not."
"But atleast its like we're on a launchpad now. Not that anything's happened, just that we're capable of grabbing the opportunities."

[I do believe I have left out a number of incidents. Getting Nandu's speakers whenever he went home and the number of people I've gotten to interact with. Firefly, falling sick whenever mom came up … it is very hard indeed to capture everything in the sem. I have had a few revisions for this, including a few more incidents as they come into mind, and all the while trying to keep the flow going. Do comment any stuff thats left out.]

Tuesday, 26 April 2011

A Hole in the Head

[An experiment. One in biology, a subject I haven't looked at in five whole years.
Dedicated to Harmon Northrop Morse and Joseph von Mering, old buggers.]

Aim: To perform a self-study and self-analysis of the contents of my skull, isolating the cause of my long-drawn headache and fever, thus figuring out how to neutralize it.


Apparatus Required:
Chloroform - so that the brain is dulled
Handkerchief - with which to apply the chloroform
Driller with screws - to drill a hole in my cranium
Sterilized trough - to pour the contents into
Formaldehyde - to preserve the contents
Microscope - to see whats wrong
Chemicals, acids, antibiotics, the works - just in case
Sterilized gloves, forceps etc - to fiddle around with the mixture
Molten Calcium - to reseal my cranium after pouring the contents back in


Theory:
The headache has been on for about a week now. I have administered upon myself a total of three 500mg Crocin (Paracetamol) tablets, four 650 mg Flumol (Paracetamol) tablets, and one how-many-ever mg Nise (Nimesulide) tablet, all to fairly temporary effects. Appetite hit a low but is now back. The head still needs a quick fix.

The skull is hard. The contents are supposedly fluid enough to flow or fall out or disentangle themselves well enough to be extracted through a small hole. This hole would have to be drilled through. Sedation and/or anesthesia is recommended to avoid disturbance caused by the visual chipping of the skull.

CH2O, i.e. HCHO, or formaldehyde to the lay-man is well known as a biological preservative. Microscopes were discovered back in the day and have thence been used to view the smallest of problems. A clean atmosphere is imperative to prevent further damage to the head and its contents.

For further information on the Theory, refer to Anatomy one-oh-one of your college course syllabus.


Procedure:
1) Dip the handkerchief in the chloroform liberally and hold it to your nose
2) Once you start losing consciousness, ditch the handkerchief, and grab the driller with the screw in it.
3) While barely conscious, instruct your subconscious in the following steps (numbered i, ii, iii, etc)

i) Drill through the skull till you feel liquid dripping down. Preferably drill at the back of the head, or at the side.
ii) Gather the trough of formaldehyde and empty the liquid contents into it.
iii) Drill through a layer or two more till you reach the brain; just in case.
iv) Empty the remaining contents of your skull. Bang on the head and jerk it if need be.
v) Play around with everything
vi) Apply medicines liberally (just in case).
vii) Put things back into the head in a last-out-first-in (LOFI) manner.
viii) Rewire the internal circuitry.
ix) Apply the molten calcium.
x) Switch on the fan to cool down and solidify the calcium into bone.
xi) Wake up, good as new.

4) If you have reached this stage alive, congratulate yourself. Now, continue writing this report, along with observations and inferences.
(to be continued after performing the experiment…)

Friday, 15 April 2011

Daydreams in Reality

[Ever felt that truth is stranger than fiction? That the Utopia in your head is matched by that around you? That your wildest fantasies were not-so-wild after all? Strange things do happen. This 'poem' is more about the adjectives and adverbs, whereas I fear that they have been written in an overlookable fashion. Just making you look out for em.
Dedicated to Sudarshana, and the person(ality) that she is.]

Rivers of thought flowing nowhere
Swirling and curling with a will
Meandering off at ev'ry impulse
Or spiraling on down into chaos.

Being swept off whole by the tide
The mind directs it on
Fantastic twists about fantastic scenes
Do beckon for just one more tour.

And when the flow has slowed to a trickle,
And when the mind is confused and fickle,
It rewinds back a scene or two
Thence forging an alternate reality anew.

But the scene of scenes, the Northern Lights
Flow on as an enigmatic beauty
I never dreamed that my waking self
Would live and experience such a fantasy.

Wednesday, 30 March 2011

Literary Reliefs

Into it, I deposit my soul
Lest any dare visit, I turn thee without,
Till how thou do seem, ist plain unsound.

A bright spark doth attract all,
And though I do but let thee fall,
And though thou dost sink to bottoms deep,
We find thy beauty impossible to resist.

For who is not a voyeur?
Who would not delight in my soul?
Who could have the will to say no?

Thou dost shine and shimmer through every surface,
They all see thee yet cannot grasp ye,
No two see thee same
For they know not what beholdeth they.

Yet thou doth call to them: whispers in their ear,
Some dive in through thine protective layer,
Alas! They do but drown at their enlightened moment.

And others do think a treasure hath they found,
Bending o'er the banks, anticipation doth resound,
As a jigsaw puzzle, doth a shape form,
But all they do behold

Is their own reflection!

Wednesday, 19 January 2011

Goodbye YM605EPTSZB


R.I.P.

YM605EPTSZB
Aug 6, 2006 -
Jun ?, 2010.


For all the times
you made me
pick up my pace

Thank You.



Wednesday, 28 July 2010

Anansi Boys

[I never can really tell what a book review is all about. All I know is that it should not be a "Plot Summary". Here's my review of the book Anansi Boys by Neil Gaiman.

Dedicated To Fat Charlie.]



“God is dead. Meet the kids.”


When I had first heard of Neil Gaiman, it was in one of the quizzes I'd attended; either here in Bangalore, or up in Delhi. I think he probably made an impression on me when he appeared in a “sci-fi-fantasy-lit quiz” here along with the likes of P. K. Dick and Terry Pratchet. Ever since, I've kept an eye out for books written by these three, so much so that my bro and me bought Gaiman's Graveyard Book (which featured in a question) last December.


While the Graveyard Book did get me back into reading (as in, it was the first book I'd read after 2 months), I found Gaiman's style of writing somewhat kiddish, and the book did not live up to my expectations. However, that was not the case with his Anansi Boys.


The book begins with a highly apt description of the protagonist; in fact, through a few incidents of his childhood. One's childhood leaves an impression on who one is, and Gaiman uses this to give us a quick and accurate description of “Fat” Charlie's character. A clumsy man with a life of embarassment, Charlie discovers only after his father's funeral that the old man was a 'god' and that he has a 'god' brother too.


Completely disbelieving, but still curious, he attempts to call his brother Spider. The next thing he knows, Spider has turned up on his front door, and has begun altering his life. While Charlie is an introvert whose only talent is that he sings very well, but only without an audience, Spider is a casual extrovert who takes what he wants when he wants it without the slightest thought for others or the slightest remorse for any of his actions. In no time, Spider has casually taken over his brother's life and left the latter with no say in the matter.


As retaliation, Charlie calls on the power of other gods to help him get rid of Spider. Without realizing it, he has awoken a force too powerful for them, while Spider has realized how he has screwed his brother's life. They join forces against all the enemies they are set against one after another, and end up fighting for their survival.


In terms of narration however, the book adopts an intermediary role in a number of places. Gaiman writes as if he is telling a story he already knows the ending of, and is making a point of it. With phrases like “if you were in his place, you too would” etc, he takes a grab at making the book sound personal in narration. Well, I personally don't like intermediary narrators. I prefer having a god-narrator, or a first-person narrator. The intermediary ones make you feel like you are a five year old listening to a story told by a grandfather at the dinner table or something.


Whereas I don't approve of the narrative style, the content is amazing. A tale of two brothers. Who have had no childhood memories together, and meet only after the passing of their father. In two weeks' time, Gaiman has managed to summarize the entire two decades' of my sibling life. From fights and bullying, to running off complaining to parents, to coming close after our own fashion, Gaiman has managed to write my siblinghood life down into a godlike tale of adventure, emotion and humour. For all those who have siblings (especially bros), this is a must-read; while for those who don't have them, this book is just what you need to find out just what you are missing out on!

Friday, 28 May 2010

Tell me a tale

[Crude... rather crude... forgive me for this... 'poem'.
Dedicated to John Masefield, a true master of poetry.

er, sorry about the dedication. NOT John Masefield.
I'm changing it to my bro, Sandeep Mathias.]

Tell me a tale of an Incident passed away,
Say, could that Incident be of '10?
Merry of soul people came from afar
To gain from its golden edition.

India on day 1, LW on day 2,
General on the last of 'em days,
The gold of biz-tech, also on day 1,
Oh where is its paper of praise?

Tell me a tale of an Incident passed away,
Say, could that Incident be of '10?
Merry of soul people came from afar
To gain from its golden edition.

Give me on time, what I've deserved,
Give me the fruit of my toil.
Give me the cash, give me the certi,
Give me my hard-earned spoil.

Tell me a tale of an Incident passed away,
Say, could that Incident be of '10?
Merry of soul people came from afar
To gain from its golden edition.

Questions and answers, audios and LVCs,
Connects: exhaustive or mega,
I'd worked through them all, and came out on top,
So its 'bout time I got my haNa.

Tuesday, 18 May 2010

Ambition

[This is a short story. Its the longest post in my entire blog till date: about one and a half times longer than the second longest. Word Count: 3172. So I must say, if you are busy with anything, do not read this now. If you are not busy however, I can assure you that you will enjoy reading this. It is the first short story since high school (third one in total :P) that I am satisfied with. Indeed I am a bit proud of this one in fact.
Dedicated to the following words: "exaggerated, aggravated, overwhelmed and agitated" :P]


In the days of King George the Umpteenth, where the land was at peace, there was born in the quiet town of Harlingtonshire, a man of great promise. He came into the world crying, for he was destined for greatness, but was in the physical form of one who is helpless. He was named Thomas Davenport, for his parents thought that Tom was a very affectionate way to call him.

Harlingtonshire is a small town on the border between England and Wales. The people of the town are very English in every possible manner. The women have a horrible dress sense and a moderate aptitude for cooking, but they couldn't care less. They spend their days gossipping about the weather, the society, or about their husbands and their jobs. The men are quiet and hard-working, and live a simple content life. They get together every evening at the bars and the inns in town to share a moment or two over a mug of ale. Good bartenders are hard to find, so you never really found that many bars in town, though bartending was indeed a highly respectable profession, and business was always good.

The wheel had just been reinvented by Alfred Nobel, who was in the process of applying for its patent, and Hitler had just learnt how to walk, while our Tom was excelling in school. His entire class admired him, for he was both friendly as well as successful, and in today's parlance, he “totally rocked”. His grade sheet never showed a B, and if there ever was a sport his school would win, he would be a part of the team. In the arts and in the cultural acitivies, he was a crowd controller, and would consistently steal the show. Greatness was expected out of Thomas. From one and all.

Including from himself.

The years rolled by. Thomas went to Oxford to study medicine, the then great thing that great people studied. He breezed through the curriculum as if it were a walk in the park. Whenever someone would ask him what his ambition was, he'd say that he'd become a leading medical researcher and find cures for a number of diseases, possibly even win the Nobel prize. But in truth he felt even this was not good enough; that he was capable of much more.

He met a girl in college: one who admired him greatly, and who fell in love with him, and from whom he knew he wasn't receiving empty flattering attention. Her name was Faye, and she was a very forward thinker who didn't believe in gender stereotyping and was highly liberal. She supported Tom through all his troubles and encouraged him through all his ventures. After college, they got married and moved to London, where Tom began working on his cutting-edge research while Faye spent her days at home, content with her place and proud of Tom's brilliance.

It was 1914 when the first world war began. It was 1914 when Charlie Chaplin got into films. It was 1914 when Faye gave birth to a beautiful little boy, who was christened Mark. Everyone was extremely overjoyed at this occasion, be it Tom's family, Faye and her family, and even the neighbouring Davidsons. Tom however, was unfortunately too busy trying to isolate a particular drug from a wild flower, which was known to have strange medicinal value. While people enquired at Tom's absence for his son's birth, Faye was still proud of all the work he was doing, and would not let this incident diminish her love for him.

Now, the Davidsons were a very close-knit family. They loved one another more than themselves, and enjoyed all the quality time they spent with one another. The parents worked in local Government offices while the kids went to a Jesuit school. They were humble and noble, and would without a moment's hesitiation go out of their way to help anyone, be it friend or stranger. They were hard-working and simple, much like the men of Harlingtonshire, yet as a family they were as one whole. They had no extraordinary spark of talent, like Tom. They only had each other, which was all they could possibly live for.

The Davenports were extremely lucky to have the Davidsons as their neighbours, but Tom was too busy to notice such trivialities. Indeed, he looked with contempt on their idleness and lack of ambition, seeing them as just another common family, undeserving of any recognition or greatness.

And so life continued. Tom would work feverishly throughout the week on some form of healing drug or another, or else would be traveling to attend high profile international conferences, sometimes even chairing them. Faye would spend her time at home looking after Mark, or indulging in various creative activities like embroidery, art and music. Mark was ever friendly with the Davidsons and their kids, but the knowledge of having a father who was too busy to care for his only son soon started having a detrimental effect on his character. While his grades remained good, he went into a shell, and soon began indulging in various acts of deceit with care-free remorselessness. He made sure that his worst acts were never traced back to him, while the other things that happened at school were small enough to not warrant the informing of his home.

Until one day, when Mark was caught cheating for an exam. It was undoubtedly one of the most innovative means of cheating the school had ever witnessed. During the exam, Mark would smuggle out a few blank exam-sheets, pretending they were rough work and that they did not require evaluation. After the exam, he'd write the answer to one or two of the questions on those 'rough' sheets. And when the papers were distributed for moderation, he would attach these extra sheets and casually point out to the teacher that those questions had not been overlooked during evaluation.

The school decided to have him suspended. Poor Mark, being the apple of his mother's eye, could not face having to tell his mother the news. He even feared that the school would have informed his mother with various gruesome exaggerations. He decided to go to the Davidsons first for help and support.

The Davidsons, being the loving people that they were, buried their shock of finding Mark a cheat and soothed his worry. Faye was just beginning to get worried as to the whereabouts of her son when Mr Davidson called home, with Mark in tow. Hardly had had Faye enquired “Where have you been? I was so worried...” when Mark had bolted down the hall and up into his room.

“Faye,” said Mr. Davidson. “Your son has asked me to discuss something that happened in school today. Let him be in his room. I daresay he is feeling pretty low himself at the moment, and needs some time alone.”

“Alright, Henry. Please sit down. Allow me to bring you some coffee, then we can discuss... whatever needs to be discussed.”

“Yes, please, thank you.”

Faye busied herself with getting the coffee ready, but her mind was paralysed. She could not think what could have made Mark run to the neighbours' before coming home, nor could she imagine anything being so serious that Mark would have dashed into his room. To hide? To be alone? Her hands moved mechanically: turning on the stove, putting on the kettle. It must be some girl trouble, she thought to herself. Yes, he rarely shares things with me, so maybe he's had a rejection of some sort. I hope he hasn't gone and gotten someone pregnant!

“Ah, thank you, Faye!” said Mr. Davidson when she had served the coffee. “So, I believe Tom is still on one of those international conferences he is so busy with?”

“Yes. It has gotten over today. So I expect he would be back the day-after. Now, what is the matter with Mark? I am so curious right now seeing his behaviour and your ominous hints, that I can't think of anything else.”

“Hmmm... I do have some bad news regarding Mark in school. By the way, the coffee is excellent. I wish my wife could make it so well...”

“Why thank you! But do tell me. I am sitting on tenterhooks here!”

“Ah. Well, to put it succintly: Mark has been suspended from school for having cheated in an exam.”

“What! It can't be! He is not that kind of person. I don't believe it. He must have been framed or – ”

“Faye, Faye... Please calm down. Yes I understand your agitation. Mark is a good kid. He is honest. He told me the truth. It is not a case of being framed. He is extremely sorry and fears he has disappointed you, so he needed me to tell you. Consider this a mistake on his part; I am sure it will pass and he will come through in the end.”

“But... but... Mark would not need to cheat. He is so bright; his grades have been good throughout. It can't be that he has been cheating on past exams as well... We have always instilled good values in him – ”

“Yes, well... let us give credit where it is due. You have instilled good values in him. Tom has been flying too high ever since the boy's birth to have had time to look down and see his son.”

“I am sure we are all proud of Tom's achievements and stature. A man like him would not have much time for family, agreed.”

“Yes... Well, Mrs. Davenport. I must be going now. Talk to Mark a little later. You'll see there's nothing wrong with him. He might require a little counselling, but all in all, I am sure he is a fine boy. Good day!”

“Oh thank you, Henry for being there for us. If it weren't for you, I don't know what might have happened to Mark!”

“Oh, it was nothing, Faye,” and so saying, Henry Davidson made his way back home, leaving a distraught Faye at the door, feeling empty and lost.

Meanwhile, Mark was in his room with his ear to the door overhearing the entire conversation. He needed to ensure that Mr. Davidson did not exaggerate his tale of cheating, that he was cast in a good light for his mother. That was another reason for going to the Davidsons to explain his situation. He knew that they would be kind and understanding and would be a support.

Cheating was a small thing in the devious mind of Mark. He had been hanging out with the local gangs for a while and his deeds amounted to much worse than mere cheating on an exam. After burglary and rape, getting caught for cheating was quite a disappointment for him. He was already into smoking, the then cool thing, and a bit into drugs, for the feeling of being high. But he didn't drink unlike the other gang-boys. He did not want to come home drunk, atleast for his mother's sake. He didn't care about his father; after all, his father didn't care about him.

A short while later, Faye had a small talk with Mark. It was by-and-large quiet and terse, for Faye was shill in shock and Mark did not want to be very open in any case.

Two days later, Tom came home after a successful conference where he showcased his ideas on hospital sanitation to the agreement of all the medical fraternity. Seeing his son at home, when he should have been in school, his initial impulse was that Mark had fallen ill. When he found out that he had been suspended for cheating, his anger knew no bounds.

He began flogging his son ruthlessly; as a drunkard might have done. “What is wrong with you! Is this what we have brought you up for?! How could you be such a disappointment to us?!” and other curses were hurled at Mark.

“I hate you!” screamed Mark in response. “You have never been there for me. Even the neighbours are more my family than you have ever been. I don't care how disappointed you get with me. I don't care about you!”

“Here I am, trying my best to help mankind, and my own son goes astray! Get out of my face. I don't want to see you again!”

“Fine!”

This was the worst row the father and son had ever had. That night, while Tom and Faye were sleeping, Mark slipped out of the house, having decided to be a gang-member full-time. He felt no remorse at running away from home, not even at the knowledge that it would gravely hurt his mother.

The next day, when the Davenports found out what had happened, they were devastated. They called the the neighbours, but the Davidsons had not heard from Mark. They filed a missing-person case with the London police in the hope that they might be able to find Mark. Faye blamed Tom and his anger, and lost her love for him. Tom still loved his son and the loss did cut him to the heart.

Throughout this crisis, the Davidsons were always there for Faye and Tom. They especially supported Faye who would otherwise have gone into depression. As it was, she spent her nights crying with Tom trying in vain to console her. During the day, Tom buried himself in his work, in order to keep from feeling grief. It was this work-to-escape-depression that would ironically earn him the Nobel Prize in time.

For the next few months, the Davenports were in constant touch with the London police, for news of their son, but with no success. A year had passed, and the police were running out of leads and hopes were low. Six months later, the police had given up, and hoped that the son might one day just turn up and return home, or that someone might by chance recognize him from the missing-persons photos put up in their offices. The Davenports had to move on.

Years later, after the downfall of the Third Reich and the formation of the United Nations, Henry Davidson had fallen fatally ill. By that time, his children were well settled: two of them lawyers, one a doctor. They all took off from their jobs to be with their father, whose disease could not be diagnosed. His entire digestive system was deteriorating, and his apetite had hit rock bottom.

Seeing the Davidsons in such need, Tom took it on himself to try and find a cure for Henry's ailment. He took it personally as a match between his medical prowess against whatever was causing Henry's illness. Try as he might though, he could not find the cause of Henry's condition in any medical literature or in his immense ingenuity. During these days, you could not find Tom doing anything that was not related to finding Henry's cure. He hardly slept, and kept from despair till the very end.

But the end did come. On 3rd September, 1947, Mr. Henry Davidson passed away due to unknown causes. He spent his last few hours on earth with his wife and all his three children. He seemed happy, and despite the inevitable, the complete atmosphere surrounding the family was full of warmth and peace. You would see his frail body exert itself to laugh care-freely at a joke of his son, or else you would find everyone explode with raucous laughter at one of his jokes. It was the most moving sight Tom had ever witnessed. It touched him deeply, and he was forced to relive the loss of his own son all over again.

For the funeral, the Davidsons asked Thomas to give the eulogy for Henry, since he had tried so hard to save him. The entire chapel was filled with all well-wishers from all over London: people Henry had helped, clients of his children, friends of the family – they all came to show their great support for the man that Henry was. One young man in his thirties with bowed head came and sat at the foot of the coffin. He sat there throughout the service. You would sometimes see him shaking with occasional sobs, or wiping his face, but he never looked up, or made any move.

At the time of the eulogy, Thomas went up and spoke thus, “Today we have gathered to remember the man that was Henry Davidson. Who was Henry Davidson? An employee? If you're from the Government, maybe thats what he was to you. Was he a neighbour? To me, well yes, he was; but he was much more. He was a friend, one who never looked for self-benefit, one who never thought about any inconvenience he would face to help a friend. I am sure you all have experienced this self-lessness and love, whether you knew him well or was a mere acquaintance, whether you liked him or whether ... no, no one could possibly have disliked such a man. He lived with love. He lived for love. He lived within love.

“But what comes to my mind at this moment, is that Henry Davidson was a teacher to me. He taught me something that I never would have learnt from any other source. He taught me the greatness of a strong family. He showed me one truly meaningful ambition in life: to be a true family-man. He was a husband to us all... a brother to us all... a... father... to us all. My own son... admitted... I was not a good father the way he was. I was living my life searching for a great name and fame and success; I had turned away from my family, from the path of true success.

“Today, I stand here and recollect the times that Henry was a true member of our own family. At my son's birth, I was busy working while Henry was there at the hospital, as a father would. When my son got suspended from school, he went to Henry as a son would. When... when my son ran away from home, Henry would come and comfort my wife and myself... as would a brother.

“Today, his body is taken from us. Yet his spirit lives on in his family: all of us. Let us remember Henry for who he was: not a man of the family, but a man for the family.”

And so saying, Thomas went back and took his seat, with the young man at the coffin's foot following. It hardly took them a fleeting glimpse of each other's eyes for Tom to recognise the man from years ago. His son had returned: to pay homage to Henry, and to return home to his family.

[Postface. Epilogue doesn't sound good, and I've never heard of a "postface", but this is essentially the 'author's note at the end', the "pre"face with pre changed to post.
People ask me what my ambition is. I tell them, "to make a family". Mostly its people my age, so they take the 'teen' connotation of that to mean "to have sex". There is that, but thats not worth calling an 'ambition', now is it? No, my ambition is to make myself a family, like that of the Davidsons. A happy family, a loving family.]

Wednesday, 21 April 2010

The First Draft

[I am never able to write a good essay on myself. It just feels weird to write in praise of oneself.
"No thinking - that comes later. You must write your first draft with your heart. You rewrite with your head. The first key to writing is... to write, not to think!"
Dedicated to the above quote, for it has rather influenced my writing recently.]

Prologue

Hi all

The AIC is proud to introduce awards for exceptional service to the Council by its members. These awards will be given on the 25th(all boards night).

All AIC conveners interested in applying for these awards must email me a one page write-up explaining their contribution to the Council by 5pm today(Wednesday).


Regards
Aman Bakhshi
'Outgoing' General Secretary


Chapter 1

Application for AIC Award

Pradeep George Mathias
2nd year outgoing convener

I don't know what to write. I am not sure why I am even doing this. If anyone has to write a one-page write-up of their contribution, they'd have to be really self-praising and just generally go on and on and probably try to intimidate the reader. Fortunately, I am incapable of doing such.

As a member of the AIC, I merely managed to fulfil my duties as a member, and as a convener. I lost steam halfway through and neglected a number of duties. I would even use the excuse of “not wanting to be elected next year” as an excuse for not working. I believe I satisfy all the requirements of an ideal convener, and I am sure that I am not boasting when I say this; but I gave up working. Despite my end-of-year negligence toward the post of convener, I managed to have a number of my classmates beg me to stand for the post again.

Instead of outlining my contribution to the AIC, which would turn out rather sub-standard in my opinion, I will describe how by merely fulfiling the duties required of me, I was able to contribute to the welfare of my department and the working of the AIC.


Chapter 2

A convener's first and most inherent duty is to represent his classmates. From the moment I was elected the convener, I have looked on my classmates as little kids to be taken care of. It was undoubtedly a most natural reaction to being put in such a position of responsibility, and I do remember a number of instances where I went out of my way, causing some confusion among the staff.

From controversies such as trying to get MAL115 floated in the summer even though the HOD had said no, to trying to sort out the issue of cheating in the MAL122 major paper, my tenure as convener has not been any cakewalk. Throughout these issues, I managed to keep my personal views out the way from making a judgment in favour of the majority, while also trying to satisfy various parties with various compromises. Whether I was successful or not, I cannot be certain; but I feel confident that I did the best I could, and that I managed to satisfy as many people as could possibly be satisfied.

As the name of the post suggests, the class convener is supposed to convene the class committee meetings. During the first year, we never had any class committee meeting, and the concept of such was rather alien. With due aid of the AIC Constitution and the General Secretary Aman Bakshi, I can confidently say that the meeting turned out successful. The agenda was taken from the class, addressed during the meeting, and the class was notified of the conclusions.

The departmental academic committee (DAC) is an integral part of the AIC. It is the bridge between the Class Committees of the Department and the AIC. However, due to the prior defunct nature of the AIC, the DACs were never held. This year however, our department senior conveners and our AIC GSec helped revive the DAC. As a participant of the DAC, along with some classmates, I became aware of the issues of the department, ensured the department was notified of the issues of our batch, and the DAC thus became a success.

When conveners were called upon to help out with the pilot project of the online feedback system for the AIC, under short notice I was able to get a majority of my classmates to respond. The pilot project, was thus a success, save for the problem of authenticity and security.

Under the AIC, I was a part of the Constitution Review Committee. As a member of the Constitution Review Committee, I suggested changes to a number of flaws in the Constitution such as “the tenure of members of the AIC should be one semester”, and other changes pertaining to a shift in the current scenario from previous times.


Epilogue

As such, in looking back at my tenure as convener, I believe I have satisfactorily fulfiled all my duties and hence, am applying for the AIC Awards.


[@Aman: If you're reading this... Do pardon the breach of privacy by publishing your email.
@all: This was NOT the thing that I finally submitted. It was just the 'first draft' of the manuscript.]

The lyricist

[This started out as an attempt to write song lyrics. I think its turned out inbetween poetry and lyrics. It would be good as either, except that the rhyming has been sacrificed in places, and gotten overpoetic for lyrics in other places.
Ok, enough about it.
Dedicated to me. An escapist dedication, for a true dedication would be telling.]

Walking down a narrow road,
Its dark around, yet far from cold,
The discomfort of my world has had me implode.

The silence about can't penetrate in
You're singing aloud, no peace within,
Can't shut you out; I'm lost in your possession.

Into your lines, I'd wanted to dive,
Exploring the rhyme, I thought I'd thrive,
But I'm going senile; unable to survive.

The flow is too powerful, the meaning too deep.
I'm caught in a vortex of sound psychedelic.
I've searched for the bottom but gotten myself lost,
I've been blown away like a spec of mere dust.

As in dark caves, your echoes sustain,
The words you say strike chords innate,
And your musical waves, within me resonate.

A puff, a whiff, a moment's high,
Without which an addict may die,
Your lines and lyrics have thus conquered my mind.

Walking down many a road
Your words do drown out my waking world,
Holding me down, you're too good to let go.


[@piyush: i ban you from commenting on this...]

Monday, 12 April 2010

hash include pfstream

//this was conceptualized waaaay back in 12th std when we were learning about filestreams in c++. Sitting with Ishan, I'd have to say this was my form of doodling. I can't find the original 'doodle', so I suppose this reconstruction'll just have to do.
//dedicated to Ishan Gupta.

// This is particularly for those who have done some c++ coding.
/*
A brief recap: iostream.h is the header where you get cin, cout, and to define your own istreams (input streams) and ostreams (o/p streams).
Further, fstream.h includes iostream.h and has the important ifstream, ofstream and fstream objects (i/p file stream, o/p file stream, file streams) which help in file handling in c++.
pfstream.h further includes fstream.h. According to some, it should rather have been called pffstream.h, but the author of the header apparently thought, as do I, that pfstream had a better ring to it. pfstream is about a particular kind of file stream, as the following sample programs shall demonstrate.
*/


//Short program to emulate Satan's Kingdom
#include <pfstream.h>
void main()
{
pfstram pf1 = new pfstream("Hell"); //step1: make the object 'Like Hell'
pf1.controls.set("The Heart Of The Sun"); //step2: Set The Controls For The Heart Of The Sun (the heat of hell)
pf1.run(); //step3: Run Like Hell
}



//Short program to cheer you up
#include <pfstream.h>
void main()
{
pfstream pf2;
cout << "Enter list of favourite colours";
cin >> pf2.colour; //step2: get Any Colour You Like
if(pf2.colour == blue)
{
cout << "Answer the following questions to win the jackpot." <<endl ;
cout << "Do you care if the sun does shine?" <<endl ;
cout << "Do you care if nothing is yours?" <<endl ;
cout << "Do you care if you're nervous with me?" <<endl ;
cout << "Will you do your loving outside the winter?" <<endl ;
cin >> pf2.answers;
if(pf2.answers == "NO")
cout << "Thank you for choosing the colour blue. And for answering the questions correctly, you have won the jackpot. May it cheer you up from your (jugband) blues." <<endl ;
}
}



//Short program for animal rights
#include <pfstream.h>
void main()
{
pfstream pf3;
pf3 = new pf3("Animals");
switch(pf3.animal)
{
case sheep:
if(pf3.tools == "Bright knives") pf3.animal.soul.release(); //With bright knives he releaseth my soul
break;
case dogs:
pf3.animal.war.loose(); //Let loose the dogs of war
break;
case tigers:
do
{
}while(!pf3.animal.free);
pf3.ground.frost=true; //There was frost in the ground when the tigers broke free
break;
}
}




/* After this tutorial, I am sure you would have gotten the gist of how to use pfstream. If you find any new innovative means of using it, please drop me a mail (or comment), so that I might add it to this tutorial with offering due credit. */

Friday, 2 April 2010

Cosmic volcanoes

[this post had quite a hard choice for the name. As such, it has no dedication.
WARNING! Possibly EXPLICIT and POTENTIALLY UNGRAMMATICAL sentences follow!]

A guy with slim and tall head and shoulders and a small middle finger with a big hairy pair of hands died last sunday.

He was very cool and hot and had tight bums around the two small and hard sticks made of molten lava. His girlfriend Priya also having same and enjoys her time spent by watching cartoons and eating popcorn with the two sticks which came from outer space where volcanic eruption took place and these sticks dropped onto Jack's head when he suddenly realized that his bums were tight enough for another stick. Outer space volcanoes on Zumanji planet far away from the Milky Way galaxy cause phenomena like masturbation and squirting on the ass which was very hot by then.

The planet exploded and the whole solar system also squirted and masturbated in the midnight when this guy named Bechara Dave squirted he realized that his anus was on fire due to the pussy eruptions besides his testicles and the masturbation of the solar system.

Sunday, 28 March 2010

Nothing else matters

[dedicated to Archit Gupta, and the year of music, ending in the politics of friday].

So close no matter how far,
Couldn't vote from the heart,
Never trust in who we are,
cuz Nothing else matters.

Never convinced people this way,
"Votes are yours, poll them your own way,
All these words I don't just say,
and Nothing else matters."

Trust I seek, but don't find in you,
Everyday some new poltu,
No open mind for any other view,
cuz Nothing else matters.

I'd never cared for what they'd say,
I'd never cared for their poltu played,
I'd never cared for what they do,
I'd never cared for what they know,

But now I know...

(...a post is all they want,
and Nothing Else Matters to them).

Wednesday, 24 March 2010

Adam and Eileen

[A short post; but atleast one thats 'long due'...
This post is dedicated to Gainda; for reasons he'll know, and few others might]


My name is Adam, and I am still looking for my Eve. I must've had enough flings with all the Evas and Elanors, but the nearest I could come to my Eve was while I was on a ship!

Now although that might be unusual and stange to you mate, the fact is I've had quite a few flings on the high seas. Take my word on this: humping rocks on
ships! You see, my life of freedom on the waters was the result of both my brother's and my awe for the vastness and majesty of the Pacific and Indian Oceans. So much so that my brother Abel joined the navy a few years ago and you could say that my voyages came as a part of his 'perks'.

In fact, the Eve encounter had occurred on my return home from visiting my brother. Hmmm, it seems I have forgotten to clarify a few things. I live in Australia: Queensland to be precise, my age is nineteen and my brother is twenty-three. He was on duty in the Indian Ocean at that time and I had been returning home on a "private ship, en route to Australia". Now here's the thing, mate, you've probably gone ahead and assumed that this Eve - her name's actually Eileen - was some beauty; red headed or brunette, or busty or whatever. Well you see, I've never even seen her. This entire thing happened on an online anonymous conversation in the middle of the night!

That, my friend, is the good thing about these private ships: free satellite internet. Hell I have no idea how they bring connectivity into the middle of nowhere, but I'm not complaining! And the quality's quite good too! Why, I've downloaded pretty much all my movies from torrents at sea. But then, theres the downside of them real torrents at sea. Take my advice on this mate: never brave the Indian monsoon unless you've got an anonymous internet conversation to look forward to. Well of course, being anonymous, you have no idea if the person you're talking to is real, automated, or someone just doing a role-play. I suppose it can be pretty hard on someone if they find out that the person they were chatting with wasan't who he/she seemed to be. I'd hate it if Eileen were just someone's role.

Be that as it may, this Eileen waas twenty, doing Art School and living in Seattle. She was new to this chat site and didn't know the first thing about 'anonymity'. She told me of her own free will her name, city, and that she was blonde, having blue/green eyes. Being from Seattle made our conversation literally across the globe: it was 1.08 p.m. there when it was 1:40 a.m. here.

Seattle is the city of grunge, and since I was a guitarist in my band, we had found something that struck a chord between us. She was a total fan of Pearl Jam and Radiohead and such bands, and in no time, we found ourselves chatting in lyrics such as "American woman, stay away from me!" From music bands like Pearl Jam to movies like Into the Wild did our topics span, and the more we chatted, the more we found common between ourselves. That Eileen had read Into the Wild as a book before the movie was news to me; for I hadn't heard of the book before then.

As much as we had in common, there were many differences between us: some subtle, some not so. I had black hair and brown eyes; she said she could never imagine me that way, and would just pretend that I was blonde. She loved Indie rock, while I loved classic rock. I liked the Indian accent; she said it just made her crack up, and that she liked accents where you could not tell their origin. I told her to try watching some of Russell Peters' performances then; she hadn't heard of him. I've never done drugs; she'd gotten high on weed once (out of peer pressure). I enjoy living on ships; she'd been on a ship just once. I will not say that we fell in love, but our goodbyes were hard enough to last a span of over an hour: it was undergoing a process of prolonged procrastination. Love has a strange homely touch to it, its unpredictability never failing to surprise the cynic.

Sunday, 24 January 2010

self-fulfilling paradox

[This incident happened about 2 or 3 days ago. I probably would've not blogged about it for a while, if not for reading about Curry's paradox: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Curry's_paradox .
So, dedicated to Mr. Haskell Curry, who gave his name to 2 programming languages and 'curry functions' which one would relate more with an Indian dish of curries rather than the sur name of a great Combinatorial dude]

[X, entering my room...]
Me: No!
X: Why, no?
Me: No, to whatever you're gonna ask!
X: Did you even know what I was gonna ask?
Me: No!

[paradox? how did i answer 'no' if i didn't know what he was gonna ask, etc etc etc
@Piyush: read the "In natural language" part of the wiki]

Sunday, 15 November 2009

The Lord of the Rings

Lord Of The Rings Trilogy

[The beginning of The Lord of the Rings clearly states, "The Lord of the Rings is not a trilogy. It consists of six books divided into three parts..." Why then, does my title have Trilogy in it? Because I am commenting on the movies, which is a three part 'trilogy'.
Being larger than life, I cannot dedicate this post to anyone; not Tolkien, not even Peter Jackson.]

It has been a fairly long time since I last read The Lord Of The Rings. About 17 months in fact. And that too I was unable to complete it then. Since that time however, I have watched the extended versions of the movie twice, each time feeling that I should read the book again. I just watched the movie trilogy and thought I'd bring out a few things I noticed between the books and the movie.

The character of Aragorn.
In my opinion, Aragorn is the most complex character in the book as well as in the movie. While Aragorn's past could not be depicted in the movies, for those who have read the book along with certain appendices would draw a highly different view of him as compared to his depiction in the movies. In the Fellowship of the Ring, from the time they reach Rivendell, he is depicted as an unsure character, one who is ashamed of his blood inheritance to Isildur. In a number of occasions, Arwen has to be a source of reassurance to him. In the Two Towers, his character is somewhat mellow, neither too unsure of himself, nor too imposing. This transitional depiction in my opinion, is the closest to the true Aragorn from the books. In the third movie, he takes up his inheritance. So much so as to the point of claiming strategic command even above Gandalf. This is quite a complete transformation from the character in the first movie; and should be considered a wee bit odd, for such a change to occur in less than a year, to one who is as old as eighty seven (according to Aragorn in Two Towers movie).

The character of Pippin.
Peregrin Took, better known as Pippin, is blatantly made out to be a comic fool. It is most, well comic, the way he says, "So where are we going?" after the Fellowship has been formed.

Actors.
The LOTR movie trilogy spanned the years I'd guess 2001 to 2005. During this time, there was a fair intersection of characters between this movie and other fantasy-style movies. A connection I had known, but only this time tried to expand in my memory.
Gandalf and Magnito from XMen
Saruman and Count Dooku from Star Wars
Legolas and William Turner from POTC
In some sense, one should greatly commend the way Hollywood makes costumes for fantasy movies. I was able to recognize the above three pairs only by matching their distinct and unforgettable voices. Gandalf's wizened accent, Saruman's powerful voice, and Legolas' unique voice.
Other connections which one could recognize by face, due to the uniqueness of the actor's features include
Elrond and the Matrix agent
Frodo and some teen scifi movie whose name I forget character
Boromir and National Treasure villain (I think)
Before joining college, I never really bothered about actors, who they were, and all that. I only enjoyed the role they played and was done with it. I suppose that might be a reason why I did not make any great connections earlier on.

The same old kids.
I might have been seeing things, but I am quite sure that the children actors have been repeated at completely different points of time in the movies. Not that it makes a difference, but it was quite cool to just make that slight observation. The kids I'm talking of first appear as the hobbit children when Bilbo is telling his story of the trolls to them on his birthday. Their next appearance is at Helm's Deep, when their mothers are sheltering them from the evil sounds of battle. And the third time was when Captain Faramir was riding out from Minas Tirith for the second time and they were throwing flowers onto his path.

Factual differences (possible spoilers, but a bland account in any case).
At the outset, I did not find a single inconsistency within the movies. This is just a slight comparison between certain pivotal (in my opinion) incidents which were modified in the movie.
0) Anduril. This difference deserves a position higher than all other differences. In the movie, Elrond brings Anduril to Aragorn, unlike in the book, where the sword is reforged before they set out from Rivendell.
1) The Council of Elrond. Elrond does not call a council, but all people's representatives come together by fate in the book. Also, in the movie, the choosing of the Fellowship all happens at The Council of Elrond, whereas in the book, only Frodo and Sam are chosen during the Council, the others are sort of debated-with later.
2) The choice of the Mines of Moria. This is quite a one-eighty-degree-turn from the book. In the movie, Gandalf's initial choice was to go through the Gap of Rohan and he changes his mind only when the craybian (birds) come spying over them. In the book, the Gap of Rohan isn't even an option, except to Boromir. Also, in the movie, Gandalf is quite completely against going to Moria. It is the last resort according to him. In the book however, he has to debate with Aragorn about the choice and in fact FAVOURS Moria if my memory serves me right. Well, this kind of caused a slight inconsistency in the movie, as when Celeborn says, "Needlessly did Gandalf go..." and Galadriel replies, "Needless were none of the deeds of Gandalf in life. We do not know his full purpose..." These lines go perfectly for the version in the book, but their repetition in the movie sort of subverts the fact that Gandalf did not at all choose Moria in the movie.
3) The fleeing to Helm's Deep. In the movie, Rohan flees to Helm's Deep as soon as 'the alarm is raised' by those two children who reach Edoras. Further, they are ambushed by Wargs, one result of which is Aragorn's fall off the cliff and his subsequent seeing of the size of Saruman's army. In the book, Theoden and all march out to war while the women and children go to Helm's Deep. Further, it is when they are on their way, that Gandalf and Legolas see the massive size of Saruman's army and Gandalf then tells Theoden to flee to Helm's Deep while he goes 'on urgent business' (Gandalf's businesses are always spoilers, so never mind them). I have poor memory of this, but I doubt that Eomer was away from Helm's Deep during the battle, unlike what was depicted in the movie, where Gandalf had to ride off to call him.
4) Saruman's death. Big difference. Big fat consistent difference.
5) Faramir. As horrid if not more horrid a character depiction as Aragorn's. The wise Numenorean captain of Gondor is made out to be some father's-pride craving son. I may say that Aragorn's depiction is forgiveable, because although they did not depict him as he really was, atleast he was not bad. Faramir's depiction however, is so black in comparison, that I think I would not be going too far to bring out Samwise's statement, "You've shown your quality, sir, the very highest", as an inconsistency. In the movie, Faramir did NOT, show his quality as the very highest.
6) Shelob's lair. I can't be critical of this difference, but it did not exactly remove something from the book. It modified things quite a bit, but added a whole dimension of character. In the movie, Gollum is shown to turn Frodo against Samwise. He cunningly brings in the element of mistrust in Frodo; something that the book does not touch upon at all. This leads to the great difference that Frodo faces Shelob alone in the movie, unlike in the book.
7) The paths of the dead and the palantir. Ah, ah, ah, Peter Jackson saved himself a few actors with this stunt. Where the Dunedain of the north are supposed to ride with Aragorn into the paths of the dead, here we have just the trio of Aragorn, Legolas, and Gimli. While the newsbearer is Elrond in the movie, and the reason is a lacking of numbers, in the book the newsbearers are the Dunedain of the North and the reason is mere haste which is a consequence of Aragorn's looking into the Palantir. In the movie, he looks into the Palantir after the Battle of the Pelennor Fields. Also, The Dead are freed after they have retaken the ships, unlike in the movie where they take the city and end the battle, and then only are they freed. I missed the reunion of Eomer and Aragorn, but I guess it was made up for in the battle for Helm's Deep when Gandalf and Aragorn reunite.
8) The destroying of the Ring. All I can say is, if they had made the movie the way the book was written, it would have seemed incomplete. On the other hand, since the book gives us a much fuller picture of Gollum, the destruction of the Ring in its manner is more acceptable. This is singularly the most noticeable difference between the book and the movies.

The cry, "The Eagles are Coming!".
This is a cry that is used once in the movies, right at the last battle in the return of the king. I am vaguely lost in terms of its origin in the book, but I am sure that this cry did not occur just once. I have an inkling, that tells me it emanated from The Hobbit, although I have read the hobbit just once/twice and cannot quite remember it. Its more like a process of elimination I guess.

Compared to almost all other fantasy-to-movie adaptations, the Lord of the Rings extended editions is the only one that lives up to the book, by changing things minimally, and otherwise reporting things as they are. As such, it is complete in itself. However, the double edge flipside of this, is that after seeing the movie in which hardly anything is changed, it is hard for one's imagination to remain original while reading the book. I daresay that if I had seen a Harry Potter movie before reading the book, I would have been able to imagine things in the book quite differently, and quite uniquely. By reporting things as they are in the book, the Lord of the Rings trilogy has made the reading one-tracked as well as somewhat unnecessary.

In conclusion, I'd just like to say that Peter Jackson ended it greatly. Out of all the other points in time to end the movie, he chose to end it with the exact same words that ended the book: "Well, I'm back."

PS: I just finished reading the book yesterday, so thought now was THE TIME to post this. Long break, yeah...

Wednesday, 28 October 2009

Happiness

[Dedicated to the first blog I'd ever read, for one of its posts was very much like this. I can't link you to it, cuz it doesn't exist any more.]
10 Things that bring me joy, in no particular order, with some overlappings.

1. Spiritual joy
2. Finding you can confide in a friend
3. Being reassured in times of distress
4. A quiet walk away from traffic
5. Getting attention from one you love
6. Cheering a side on to its win
7. Falling in love
8. Overwhelming movie scenes
9. Being touched and speechless with gratitude
10. Witnessing a discreet help bear fruit

Tuesday, 20 October 2009

Confessions of an IIT aspirant (thematic giveaway)

[If you have not read Confessions of an IIT Aspirant, I suggest you do that first, and then come here. This is what one would call a 'spoiler'.
Okay, so here are your giveaway paragraphs. The first one gets inserted after the 5th paragraph, and the 2nd one gets inserted after the last paragraph: which you would have known if you had got the theme. Here are the missing links...]


On my visit to IITB with my aunt just before starting JEE coaching, I remember thinking how inside the campus, the grass was greener. If intellect was Light, then the Light was brighter. I remember thinking of myself being there with friends surrounded. The days of pondering the mysteries of science and technology would be followed by the nights of wonder.

Looking back at the two years of my JEE preparation, I recall my first holi: how photographs of KK's pre-holi lawn showed the grass was greener. I admit I was in love during that time, and there were times when I looked at Her, and the light was brighter. I remember eating Chole Bature at KK's holi, and thinking that the taste was sweeter. But most of all, I remember the times I'd beg for sleepover permission, and whenever it was granted, the nights of wonder. Those few nights were nostalgic occasions, for we all were mutually with friends surrounded. I recall the sleepover at Nish's after the batch party, and how we listened to The Dark Side of the Moon with the dawn mist glowing. And my second and more violent holi, with the water flowing. Continuously it flowed, forming the endless river. All in all, my non IITian-desirous life of those two years shall be cherished by me forever and ever.

[If after this giveaway you still haven't got it, its okay. You probably never will unless someone blatantly lets you in on it. And in that case, I seriously doubt you would look at this the way I do. However, if you have got the theme, I am hereunder putting the entire thing again, with these two paragraphs inserted in their correct place, so that you can judge the flow, and hopefully find the ending more hopeful. Read on if you wish.]

Driving along from Bombay to Pune to visit my cousin pursuing an MTech from IITB, I remember looking out to the sea, and wondering what lay beyond the horizon. I guess that was the holiday when I had first heard of the words 'horizon' and 'skyline' and was just generally admiring the scenic beauty of the place with the mist over the water on one side, and the skyline of Bombay on the other. It was the summer vacation for my brother and me, and it was at our Aunty Annette's that we lived when we came up to Bombay. We were young back then, about ten years old, but still the 'brand IIT' had been heard of, even if not quite understood. In a land dependent on the agriculture industry, these IITs had made a dominating impact! Our cousin showed us some complicated stuff of magnets and miracles had become natural occurrences.

Back at home and back to school after the summer, we found our thoughts strayed from the lectures in class. Constantly and enthusiastically was I seen trying to explain some electromagnetic thing to my peers. I think that they only ended up thinking that my imagination was without boundary. All this was put to the back of my mind however, till 11th grade, when the ringing of alarm bells at 5:20 a.m. for the 6 o'clock coaching class would interrupt my peaceful slumbering for the next two years. Speaking of bells, it was at this time that I was introduced to Pink Floyd and their album The Division Bell. With IIT aspirations on the one hand, and school friends' fun on the other, the emotional upheavals they caused ensured that my maturation had begun.

"Along the long end of the bimetallic strip is..." started the thermo physics lecturer. "The ball rolls on this flat road and on towards the wall with a friction coefficient of ...", droned the mechanics physics lecturer. Though this should have been hectic and all, I would end up wondering about my friends in my previous school and those in my present one as I walked down the causeway. "Do they still stock up on eggs for Josephs-Germains matches?" Or else, "Maybe I should call some on them in Indiranagar and we could meet there by next week?" All this while simultaneously hoping I'd make the cut for the IIT Bombay Computer Science Department.

Then there was a time when I noticed the competition get fierce. The majority of the coaching=goers were like some ragged band that was worn out and yet still carrying on. As we led, they followed in our footsteps. My ambition was great; for my part, I was running before time, racing against it. We all had our own ambitions, and we all had to stretch, lest complacency took our dreams away.

Leaving the myriad NCERT problems in school for those not into the JEE preparation, we used to pursue those 'higher level' IIT problems during class hours, much to our teachers' displeasure. You can't blame us; those NCERT problems were like small creatures trying their best to lure us into some false sense of achievement. For their part, the teachers wanted to tie us to the NCERT syllabus, so that we acquire good marks for them in the board exams and maintain the school's reputation. Of course, we did make full use of the P.T. periods to play volleyball in the ground. Without these little bits of fun, we would have been devoting our selves to a life of physics, chemistry and mathematics alone. Consumed by determination and perfection, we had been to excel. And the NCERT problems were left to their slow decay.

On my visit to IITB with my aunt just before starting JEE coaching, I remember thinking how inside the campus, the grass was greener. If intellect was Light, then the Light was brighter. I remember thinking of myself being there with friends surrounded. The days of pondering the mysteries of science and technology would be followed by the nights of wonder.

On a number of occasions, I would end up looking beyond the moments of temporary satisfaction to the impending glory at the end of those two years' hard work. On other occasions, I would look back at my past and reflect on how much I'd changed recently; seeing embers of bridges I'd crossed and realising I could not return to being the person I'd earlier been. I doubt I was the only one who was feeling this tempestuous change; I guess we all had bridges of our own, glowing behind us. The hectic pace of our lives had transformed each memory from a clear vision to a glimpse through a fog. Memories of how green our Garden City was, were obscured by the grey concrete present of the Silicon Valley of India. It was on with the rat race for all of us JEE rats, while the others were hanging out with each other. We were all dying to get to the other side of the IIT portal.

I had to face the inevitable debate of whether I would have my steps taken forward out of passion or out of a necessity to work hard. When I was working out of passion, my progress was metaphorically not just walking ahead during the day time, but sleepwalking at night as well. Referring back again to my passion or hard-work debate, even at the height of my being driven by the former, I would doubt whether the latter was enough. I was dragged by the glamour of the computer science subject and Bombay as being the location of my favourite summer vacations. As a force of some considerable magnitude, was y aspiration to enter into the IITB Computer Science branch. This force was like an inner tide dragging me along even when my will and motivation was not very high.

During the coaching class tests, I would picture myself as an eagle soaring off at higher altitude as compared to the other birds. Or when the results of a test were declared, I'd imagine myself as a victorious captain, returning home with flag unfurled. By the end of our first year, a lot of us did indeed feel proud of where we reached in our rat race. The dizzy heights of our seniors' achievements did not look so dizzy now that we had climbed so high ourselves. That dreamed-of world at IIT had become a realistic entity.

Towards the end of the two years, looking back at those times, I thought I had been encumbered forever by various hopes and by love. Personal desire and ambition is not easy to satisfy when you are an IIT aspirant. When you want a top 50 JEE rank, or an IPhO gold medal, there's a hunger to push yourself in various directions, not always parallel. With time before the JEE running out, I found I was still unsatisfied with my preparation., but realised I could not do much about it.

Our weary eyes, having spend an eighth of their lifetime on the IITJEE cause, would relish the slightest out-of-the-ordinary sight; be it a goat with two feet on a wall reaching up to eat a few leaves off a low garden tree, or a bunch of care-free kids doing wheelies for over 100 m. on an empty stretch of road-blocked road. My eyes would still stray to a lost IPhO dream, having not qualified for the selection camp. Those daydreams can still be seen at the horizon, gleaming just out of reach. Though down this path of disappointment I had seen myself go, I would still find myself a new fool's hope to cling on to. This disappointment-following-hope road we've been down at least once; for all of us. For so many times I had witnessed the symptoms of a dying fool's hope, whether it was my X Std. board exams or my IPhO dreams, but my IITB CSE dream would be the last one I'd cling on to, till it inevitably shattered with the final disclosure of the JEE results.

Looking back at the two years of my JEE preparation, I recall my first holi: how photographs of KK's pre-holi lawn showed the grass was greener. I admit I was in love during that time, and there were times when I looked at Her, and the light was brighter. I remember eating Chole Bature at KK's holi, and thinking that the taste was sweeter. But most of all, I remember the times I'd beg for sleepover permission, and whenever it was granted, the nights of wonder. Those few nights were nostalgic occasions, for we all were mutually with friends surrounded. I recall the sleepover at Nish's after the batch party, and how we listened to The Dark Side of the Moon with the dawn mist glowing. And my second and more violent holi, with the water flowing. Continuously it flowed, forming the endless river. All in all, my non IITian-desirous life of those two years shall be cherished by me forever and ever.


[For those of you who got the theme, I'd just like to give you a little 'disclaimer' about the relationship of the theme with the article.
Though this truly represents a part of me rather personally, I would like to warn you against reading too much inbetween the lines.. In my desire to keep to the theme, I have distorted some emotions and brought in needless ones. Also, my memory has been doctored since the past one year, and may not represent the reality I had made for myself in 11th & 12th. However, I can offer one clue on what to read between the liens: if it sounds artificial, like it is there just to fit in with the theme, don't take it seriously. And finally, if you do correctly glean what I had felt, you will understand why I liked HH more than WYWH.]